Wild Greens

Wild Greens 4, no. 6 (April 2024)

Soundbite

Welcome to the April 2024 issue of Wild Greens

A couple overheard in Tenby (Wales)

by Doug Jacquier

At the Buccaneer Pub, inside the walls of the old town, I’m drinking with ancients like myself, pretending to be interested in rugby while they pretend to be interested in cricket.

Neither of us fakes their distrust of royals (though it must be said that the man in the top hat and overalls, feeding his bar stool-perched water spaniel some crisps and Guinness, is a little less harsh than his mates. He would allow them to take their own lives come the revolution).

Drifting from a woman behind me comes:

“I already told you what I want but you didn’t want to buy me that!”

I turn to hear her man, all country-tied up and jacketed with leather elbows, red of face and spaniel-eyed, shout:

“Two more of the same, thank you, landlord.”

Before the next pint, I offer side bets to my new companions about how long it will take before he notices she’s been in the Ladies an awfully long time and that the pub has a back door.

“My round, convict lad,” smiles Top Hat, “because the dog thinks you're funny.”

Scenery

by Blanka Pillár 

I forgive him for the little lies. The little fibs that slip away and the broken promises that go unkept. He always tells the same lies, and sometimes I believe him because the story paints itself like a vivid oil portrait; first, the figures are painted, then the background, then the corners, edges, contours, and finally, it becomes as if it were a real scene on the canvas of life, but only the immensity of human imagination has made what could never be real. It tells me what I most desire, so I reach for it with all my heart, stretching out my soul’s arms to preserve all his lips whisper and hold it within me for eternity. I love him with all my heart, but when my reality is keen-eyed, it sometimes smells like the scratch of jagged-edged infidelities in the dawning light or the wistful night. The cold realization slips into bed beside me or touches me as I walk.

Today we take it into our heads to walk around the riverbank. We get caught in the cool January breeze, and he starts coughing. I take off my thin pink cotton scarf and wrap it around his neck with careful movements. He gives me a weak half-smile and walks on. My chest gets hot, even though my whole body is shivering from the winter’s minus temperatures.

Sometimes we stop. We look at the broken-legged seagulls on the slippery waterfront stones, the sloppy sidewalk ahead, and the footprints of giddy pedestrians. He rubs his hand as we spy on one of the old buildings covered in melted snow. His fingertips are almost purple, so I tug off my black fabric gloves and slip them on his frosty palms. He thanks me quietly. His silent words creep into my consciousness like angelically soft notes, wrapping my trembling body in a gentle embrace. 

The milky-white sky opens, and it drizzles, but we are unperturbed. We sit on a stinging bench and stare silently at the glistening toes of our wet boots as they tread the snowy ground before us. Somewhere in the distance, expensive hand-painted plates clink, light pages of newspapers crinkle in the city breeze, the iron bells of a dilapidated church jingle, and a delicious golden-skinned duck in a warm oven is being prepared. 

I feel him move beside me, and I put my head down. He sways back and forth with folded arms while tiny particles of dripping snow fall on his knitted flame-red Angora sweater. I slip my thin arms out of my expensive loden-lined coat and place them on his back. He looks me in the eye. My tongue curls and confesses at seeing his delicately delineated perfect face. It humbly admits the truth it has admitted so many times before and hopes. It hopes that, for once, its love’s answer will not be a lie. But once again, he replies, “I love you, too.” 

He utters this gracious lie delicately. I-love-you. The first syllable is trust, the second is passion, and the third is loyalty. He feels none of these, yet he testifies to them. He savors the shape of the voice. First bitter, then sour, then finally swallowed. After all, it’s only three words. But for me, it’s so much more: I put myself in his hands.

Maybe that’s not how it all happened. I’ve been sick for a while now; my lungs are weak from the January freeze. Every time I close my eyes, I try to remember our last story. Embellish it, add to it, rearrange it, change it. Maybe one day I’ll grind it to perfection, and those words won’t ring so false. Or the memory will turn yellow, like old letterhead, and no longer matter. Or maybe “I love you” will become just another fluffy saying to be whispered in the harsh winter, bored, picked up by the wind, carried far away, across the world, to where it means nothing.

Far from the eager, greedy arms of my soul.

Salt and Strawberries

by Natalie Quiles